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Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Kenny G And Work

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I have been working from the wee hours of the night until the sun rises. I have worked the graveyard shift in the past employments. The only difference now is that I didn't have to go out in the middle of the night and hail a cab for work. After dinner, if I don't work a few hours with my 2nd client, I spend a little cuddle time with my nephew and put him to bed afterwards. As soon as he's dozed off to la-la-land, I sit in front of my computer and begin working my full time job. 

If I have an hour or two to sleep, I'd take advantage of it because most of the time these past few weeks, I don't get enough sleep anymore. And this becomes a problem because it causes me to be sleepy at work. So I had to do something to keep myself awake.

Most often, I'd listen to Kenny G's music. Although it's relaxing, it doesn't make me feel sleepy at all. The perfect pitch of his Saxophone awakes my senses. LOL! I wonder if he changes his sax neck to a wwbw saxophone neck since he uses his instrument a lot. Well I think he does. According to Wikipedia, he started playing the instrument in 1966 when he was only 10 years old. And it made him a world-class artist.

His music is truly amazing. It brings you to a happy place, I very seldom see musicians here in my province who plays the saxophone. But whenever I see one, I have high respect for them. It isn't that easy to blow your heart out just to be able to play a beautiful melody. It takes years of practice for sure.

Some people doze off when they listen to Kenny G's song, I don't. His music awakens my soul and keeps me up and inspired at work.

That Is Just So Brandon! :)

This kid was behaved on stage after their class dance presentation. He was waiting for his turn to receive the certificate - a proof that he's finished this year's summer class at my Alma Mater, Mt. Matutum Christian School. 

He sees the camera... he turns from this...

To this...

And this...


Well, that's how Brandon destroys the candid shot I was trying to capture. That is just sooo Brandon. Lol! But I love him still!

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Will Play Songs Again... One Of These Days...

Ever since I went home for good over a year ago, I haven't given myself a chance to play my guitar again. I admit, my hands are full. Apart from managing the household and taking care of my nephew, I also have to spend time with my boyfriend. Not to mention I work for 2 clients now. I sit in front of my computer most of the time, 13 hours max per day. I don't even have time to workout anymore. Sigh.

But I really would love to spend sometime learning to play songs with my guitar. Maybe purchasing a new guitar from would once again inspire me to play music once again. My guitar needs some fixing. That could also be one of the reasons I don't want to play it anymore.

I would really love to be able to play music again. I just realize, I even very seldom sing. And to think, this is what I used to be very passionate about.

I know music will always be in my heart. One of these days, I will sing beautiful songs again. One of these days, you'll see me with a guitar at hand and play beautiful songs. One of these days...

Monday, April 25, 2016

Finally Found "The Man"!

I'm only one call away 
I'll be there to save the day 
Superman got nothing on me 
I'm only one call away

The lyrics of this song portrays how the man of my life has been treating me since day one. He's always been there for me when I needed him. He's only one call or text away. Of course, he has a job to attend to. But he always make me feel that I am on top of his priority. To tell you the truth, no one - again NO ONE has ever made me feel that way. That's why you can't blame me into falling in love with this beautiful guy!

He doesn't make any pretenses. He's tough yet kind and caring. The kind of man who will make you feel secured in his arms and is willing to fight for you. The kind of man who's proud of you and make you feel beautiful even if you're not drop dead gorgeous. The kind of man who doesn't make promises but make things happen. The kind of man who doesn't just say "I love you" but more so, he shows his love in countless ways. 

I did not find Superman, but I definitely found my MAN! :)

Friday, March 25, 2016

No Summer Getaway for Brandon

School year has ended and it is summer time. However, instead of going on a summer getaway, we are holding that off because our Brandon (my lovable and huggable nephew) is attending summer classes. He is smart but he's a bit challenged with his Match subject. So I have to get him ready for next school year's Mathematics.

It is not going to be a boring summer class because I'll have him choose another class that will enhance his talent and skills. He can either go to a painting class or a piano/voice class. Well, I hope he'd choose the latter because a teacher who owns an s650 Key Arranger workstation is willing to train him. And I really would love for him to be more interested in music just like me! Haha!

I am looking forward for our Brandon's upcoming summer escapade. It won't be fun under the sun on a beach somewhere but it's definitely worth spending his summer for. New learning and training awaits our bog boy!

Friday, March 18, 2016

Finally, A Blog Post!

After months of being in hiatus, finally I found the courage to post an entry to this blog once again! Yey!

I have been enjoying the perks of working home-based. I have been working in the comforts of my home for 10 months now (Wow! That's almost a year!) and I'm still loving it. Work has been really good. And more good things are yet to come, according to the agency I am currently working for. I am staying positive. I really hope that I will have a better future with this career path that I have chosen.

Aside from work, as I have mentioned before, I have been taking care of my nephew and also helped my Mom out in managing the household. My nephew is included on the list of the higher ranked students this coming school recognition day. I think I did a good job as an Aunt. I deserve a pat on my back. LOL!

I learned to drive my brother's car. I very seldom commute nowadays. Well, as long as my brother leaves the car and the car keys!

Me and my Mom, of course, still manage to be together despite our differences. Someone just taught me how to be more patient with her behavior and mood swings. Thank God for him... :) 

The best part about being in hiatus from blogging is finally finding the love of my life. We are still at the early stage of our relationship. However, we both can tell that we are meant for each other. I am so in love! Haha! I'll save that for another post.

There goes an update of my life for the past 10 months. I know I have not kept my promise about consistently updating my blogs but I really hope and pray that I'll be going back to writing my thoughts through my blogs again and sharing it to the world!

Saturday, July 4, 2015

I Miss My Guitar Calluses

I miss strumming my guitar yet it's just hanging on the wall in my room. Ever since I came home, I never had the chance to play my axe which I used to love to do. I'm too caught up in between work and my household chores and taking care of my nephew. I'm basically still on the adjustment stage. I'm only barely a month in my home-based job and I'm working nights. I'm still trying to cope up with my work schedule as well.

I miss the sound of my guitar and singing with it at the same time. I remember how it hurts whenever I get guitar calluses on my fingertips. But no matter how painful the calluses become, I feel satisfied whenever I learn to play new songs with my guitar.

I don't know what's happening to me but I haven't given myself a chance to do what I love to do. My passion for music has taken a back seat for years now. I guess it's time to go back to it. I promise to play music again and I will post some of them online. So be ready Social Media! I'm going back to music again! :)

Wishing You A Great 4th of July!

I have been serving Americans for years now. And in my years of service to them, I have learned a lot about their culture and their country. I also learned how much respect they have to those soldiers who fought for their country, for their independence.

Today is the 4th of July and I would like to say,

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Music And Brandon

At the age of 4, that's when my nephew learned to talk. To his parents surprise, he already learned to hum a tune or two even before he can talk. So when he finally was able to talk, he didn't just hum but also sang songs that we didn't know the language yet, loud and proud. LOL! Sometimes listening to him sing at that time makes you think twice if he actually is singing the songs you have in mind because he make different lyrics out of them.
Now that he's seven, I keep on introducing to him different song genre. So far, he likes listening to classical music. And if I have enough money, I'd enroll him in Piano lessons so he'd get to play the classical music by himself. I likes the idea for now.

I can see a future musician from my nephew. I know for sure that when he becomes older, he'd be more interested in music than I was when I was his age. Well, I didn't have anyone to support me when I was little. So I think, he's fortunate enough. I won't think twice about buying the music instruments he'd like to acquire or if he'd like to try the teenage engineering op-1 in case he'd be into recording music and stuff, I will be there to support him.

I could be a stage aunt in case he'd pursue into a musical career. I definitely will be more than proud to be an influence to him in music. 

Monday, June 15, 2015

Finding Happiness

I was happy when I was in Manila. I had my boyfriend and had plenty of friends. Apart from being able to work in a  corporate world, I also kept myself busy with my Church obligations. However, it felt like I got exhausted with everything that was going on back there. Maybe it has to do with getting stressed out at work and the environment. You know how it is in Manila. It's always a busy place. I just couldn't keep up any longer. It came to the point that I felt like I lost a part of myself in it. I wasn't happy anymore. I found myself longing to come back home.

So I turned my back from Manila. I'm home and  I really feel comfortable here. Although me and my mother still have a few arguments which I can deal with this time around, I really can't complain much. Anyway, there is our Brandon who lights up the mood whenever a conflict arises. He can let everyone forget about being angry just by opening his mouth or just by him being around. He is such an angel.

With what's going on in my life right now, I realized that I keep finding happiness. And I kept looking for it in places when I can only find it from deep within myself. I have contemplated a lot since I came home. I have learned to take things easy and not to rush. I learned to relax.

Being home with my family made me realize that they are more important than anything else in this world. I'm grateful that I am now here for them. And by writing this post, I just realized that my family is my happiness.

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Can't Wait For Monday

There's another thing that makes me giggle in excitement this coming Monday, April 13th. My boyfriend is coming to town! I just couldn't wait for the moment we'll be together once again. He'll be staying here for a month or so to help build the new apartment building that my Mother is planning to do for years now. Her wish will finally be granted.

It won't be a grand vacation for my boyfriend but his stay here in Polomolok is going to be productive for sure. He said he's ready for the challenge. His tools for work and lighting cables are all set for him to start doing his job. LOL!

I can't wait for Monday!

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

32 Years Of Existence!

In my 32 years of existence, I have embraced freedom for 10 years. But now I chose to be back home with my family. I have loved and failed on relationships but right now, I'm in love with my 23 year old boyfriend. I have tried to be successful on corporate jobs but I think the corporate world isn't for me. I have made lots of friends and I am continuously doing my Church obligations. I think I'm still on track.

Today is my birthday. Nothing grand has happened but it's alright. Being with my family and being at peace with myself are what's important for me right now. I may be unemployed for now but I know and I trust that God will help me land a job that will at the same time allow me to spend time with my loved ones. I may not have succeeded my career in the corporate world but I have gained knowledge and experience that I may use for my future home-based job. I know I'll be alright.

In my 32 years of existence, God has guided me. I may have failed numerous times but He never lose faith in me. He helped me become the woman that I am now - better and should I say bolder? :)

I'm happy at where I am right now. Happy birthday to me! :)

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Trying To Cope With New Lifestyle

I am still trying to cope with my new schedule. I have been working the day shift since I began my career in my new job. It's not that I'm having a hard time trying to adjust to my career status now. I love it that I am employed at the company I really dreamed of working at and being in the day shift is a bonus. There are just some things I'm having a hard time to accomplish with the normal shift. Well, I guess I have to work out on how to manage my time well so that I can do all the things I need to accomplish.

I really want to be able to play music again. I haven't done that for the past months. It has been a while since I played my guitar. I wish I'd be able to manage my time well so that I can also do the things I'm really passionate about. I would love to play new instruments like being able to play the Fender Bass. If only I have enough time to do that.

It may take a time on getting used to with my new schedule but I'm pretty sure I will get the hang of this. I know eventually I'd be able to accomplish more with this new lifestyle.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

What's Up With Blissful Me?

After I resigned from the previous company I worked for in three years, there were so many things that happened in my life. Not big but they were really "spiritually" productive. For more than a month of being unemployed (since I was waiting for my first day on my new job), I spent most of my time at Church doing my duties and obligations. With the help of the other officers at Church, I'm happy to say we were successful in doing what we were expected to do. And with that, we bring back the glory and honor to our Lord God, almighty! :)

I also spent a lot of time with friends and my boyfriend, of course. Since I'll be caught up with work on my new job, I made sure to make the most of whatever time I have to spend with them.

I also should have made updates on my blogs. Apparently, I didn't. I procrastinated a lot when it came down to doing my online chores to the point that I even forgot about visiting my blogs until today. I realized I have to make updates on them, or else I'll be missing some online opportunities. And I know it's time to get myself back on track to the blogging world again! LOL! I have been saying that in my previous posts but I mean it this time. Besides, I have to put my writing skills into practice once again. :)

Saturday, September 20, 2014

The Ber-Months

The month of September began more than a couple of weeks ago. Well, here in the Philippines, it's the beginning of the Christmas countdown for most of the Filipinos especially the member of the Roman Catholics. It's the "Ber-Months" which means it's the beginning of Christmas. Some of them have already begun hanging christmas ornaments in their homes. The festivity, which will actually happen months from now, has already begun.

As for me, I'm more excited about our family gatherings and the New Year's Eve celebration. I know it's wayyy to far from today but I'm really looking forward to it. I'd be able to spend that special event with my family. I just couldn't wait!

Goodbye And Thank You, Emerson

My world felt like it was spinning while I was on my way to work. There were a lot of things I was thinking about. I guess that day, being my last day at work, made me all the more anxious. My head hurt a bit.

My work schedule began at 7pm that Friday night. As soon as I got to the office, I immediately opened my emails and began working on the orders I'm scheduled to release. Sigh. It's my final day at Emerson yet there are still a lot of things I had to accomplish. I needed to stay busy the whole shift just so I won't have to face my colleagues and be mellow-dramatic about my exit. I just didn't want them to see me for the last time, cry like a baby.

The time flew really fast that when I checked the clock, it's 3 o'clock in the morning. It was only less than 2 hours before I bid farewell to my 3-year colleagues. By that time, I'm almost done deleting all the personal files I had on my computer until my boss, Mariane, asked me to follow her in one of those rooms for my final coaching. I was a bit confused but I was on my toes and followed her to the room. I thought, maybe she just wanted to see me cry for last time, LOL!

When I got to the room, all six of them (my team mates) were in the small room. There were food on the table. I was about to cry but I held my breath and tried as much as I can to smile. It was so sweet of them to do that for me.

It was always hard to say goodbye. I have been through this in my past employments. But it was different with Emerson. It was actually bitter-sweet. I owe the company a lot. It opened my mind to things I never imagined I'd be able to come across with in my life. I'm able to learn things I never thought my mind would ever grasp. LOL! Not that I'm dumb. I think the company was able to help me mature and taught me a lot to reach for my goals and aspirations. Emerson made me a better employee.

With the best boss everrr! :)

My bosses were really great, especially Mariane. She made me believe in myself and she made me believe I can do more. I was really lucky I was one of her subordinates. 

With the crazy Will! :)

As for my colleagues, they were okay. I never really connected with most them but Will. He's my little brother and he's the only person who understood my craziness. 

To the other guys, maybe they thought I was weird. I can't blame them. As the saying goes - beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. They can judge me however they want and I could care less. I'm just being myself. :)

As I was saying, it was really hard to bid goodbye to old friends and colleagues. Yet, there are a lot of things outside Emerson that I need to discover and there are a whole lot of friends out there that I'd be eager to meet. For now, I'd say goodbye to friends yet I'll be in touch with real ones...

Goodbye and thank you, Emerson!

I'm Ready For The New Beginning!

I haven't had a lot on my plate lately after I resigned from work. I've been a bum for more than 3 weeks now. What a life! I was able to spend a lot of time for my church obligations and was able to really get enough sleep that I was deprived with in the past 8 years. LOL! I'm exaggerating, again! And of course, I was able to spend time with my boyfriend.

If only I had enough money, I would have wanted to spend the past 3 weeks in my home province - GenSan and spend time with my family and More time on stage with the Kuerdas Band. Sigh. Too bad I didn't have enough money in my pocket for my plane ticket.

Well, the new chapter of my life is about to begin and I'm really excited! I'm ready for the new job and I'm more than ready to meet new set of friends! I'm ready for the new beginning! :)

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

A Dream Of A Normal Life

I have always dreamed of having a normal life. For me, a normal life is being able to sleep soundly in the evening and wake up to a beautiful morning. I have always been a morning person. Although I'm able to experience that whenever I have my days off from work but it's not enough. I'm not really happy about it anymore, to be honest.

After more than eight long years of working the graveyard shift, finally, my dream of having a "normal" life is about to come true. In fact, I only have two more nights to work at Emerson until my resignation day which is going to be tomorrow.

I'm a bit sad because I will have to leave a few friends. And to tell you the truth, I love my job. I just have to sacrifice this job because of my Faith (which I'm going to explain further on my next post).

For now, I am more excited with what's going to happen in the next chapter of my life. I know I'll be in a better place, in God's help. I know He will not forsake me. And I am confident that this next journey in my life is going to be for a better future. :)

Friday, July 25, 2014

Owning A Pet Dog - A Dream

Dogs are man's best friend - and so they say. I really couldn't relate to it because I don't own a dog. Well, not just yet. I can't afford to take care of a dog right now. Besides, I don't have a space for a pet in my small home. Maybe later in the future, I would be able to get myself a pet dog.

I can't afford to own a dog because I don't have time to take care of it. I have a lot on my plate here in Manila. Getting a dog would be an addition to a lot of my responsibilities. If it gets sick, I will need to have time to bring him to a vet so he'd get a vetprofen or other medication he would be needing. That's also going to be an addition to my expenses. Like I said, I wouldn't be able to afford it.

If ever I will go back home in GenSan, I might consider getting a dog. Brandon will be very excited about having a dog as his playmate. It will really be fun for sure. However, as long as I'm here in Manila, getting a dog and make it my best friend will remain a dream for me. I hope it will become a reality sometime soon.

Sunday, June 15, 2014

I'm Not The Angry Daughter Anymore, Tatay...

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The month of June is the month for Fathers - Daddy, Papa, Tatay, Ama - however you call them. Thanks to the advertisements and the social media, we are reminded to think about them on Father's Day.

I have read some articles of daughters, sons and mothers talk about the greatest man of their lives. I guess it's time for me to talk about mine.

To tell you the truth, I really don't know much about my Tatay. He wasn't around as I was growing up because my Nanay kicked him out of our house when I was 6. I remember how confused I was with what was going on while my little brother, who's a year younger than I am, cried so hard as if he knew what was happening. And I just stood there as I watched my father leave.

I basically grew up in a household without a father figure. My mother being a working Mom didn't have all the time to really look after us. So we basically do whatever we want as long as we're there when she gets home from work. Until one day, in my freshman year in high school, my father came back. It felt surreal but he was there at our doorstep, looking all surprised seeing his all-grown up teenage daughter. I was dumbfounded but I think I felt happy about him being home. That was the first time I remember I sat on his lap. Finally, I have my Tatay home with me.

It wasn't long before he discovered how rebellious I was. He wanted me to just stay at home and do the unending chores he's expecting his little girl to accomplish. We didn't get along because of his rules and because I was an angry kid. I didn't know how to express my feelings about everything. I did not really give myself a chance to get to know my father. I kept my distance from him.

I just knew him as a man for the oppressed laborers. He represented them along with his colleagues in the union. Yes, my father was an activist. One of the great men of KMU (Kilusang Mayo Uno). A lot of people looked up to him but me. Well, again, because I was an angry kid.

Looking back, I knew my father tried his very best to reach out to me. He bought me nice clothes, chocolates and boxes of fresh milk and whitening soap whenever he came home from work. It's funny because he wanted me to stay at home so that my skin won't get sunburned. That's what the soaps and boxes of milk were for. So when he learned of me joining the softball varsity team, he was so mad that he set up the 6 o'clock curfew. I had to rush home after the games. 

I was a tomboy and he wanted very much for me to be lady-like. I remember how happy he was when he learned I was taking piano lessons. He was there when I won first place on my piano recital. That was the only time we had our picture taken together. 

I remember the last day I saw my father. He asked me to take care of the house and my mother. Him and my brother were leaving for Manila that day. He told me to take very good care of myself. I can't remember if there were hugs and kisses, though. But for some odd reason, I felt it was our last time to see each other. I was so sad as I watched him leave and I cried profusely. After a month or so, he died of cardiac arrest.

I didn't know if I ever made my father proud when he was alive. All I know is he loved how I make his coffee and that he appreciated how tedious I was when it comes to ironing his clothes. I know in those simple gestures, I was able to make him happy. 

If I wasn't an angry kid most of the time, I would have had that chance of a "father-daughter talk" that I always dreamed of. If I wasn't an angry daughter, I would've known my father even better. There are just a lot of "what ifs" for me. All because I let my anger take over me most of the time. If he's still alive today, I'd thank him for my life and that I'm proud to be a daughter of an activist. I'd hug and kiss him once in a while. I would love to know more about him if only I did not waste so much time hating.We may have different views in life, but I'd tell him it's alright. I would love to listen to him now. 

I think he would be proud of me this time. I have changed, Tatay. I'm not the angry little kid anymore. If only you can see me now.

My father is Aurelio G. Cruz - an intelligent union leader.

Happy Father's Day to all the Dads in the world...